On death

On death ( though I am not sure anymore that  I can attain that non state, since I have no blood, and I keep existing as a  cold blooded reptile I suppose,) I have  prepared the following final reflections on a aim that this ten year journey of mine has steadily pursued to.    To pry open the  third door, walk through it and leave it slightly ajar so that others can see that there is light inside there. I have prepared  the following , and though not copmplete post it just in case  this "death"  ever come stealthily one night.

On death-

being so close to it  I have been reflecting on it deeply. I believe i was right in calling death the  forbidden beatitude even though I have finally understood that there is no such thing as death per se.   Death in fact  has no faults that we  know of , in fact no characteristics  at all. It exist only in our fantasy as we  wrongly attribute to it that rough patch of life that leads to it but is not part of it.

it is our fog, our ignorance and fears reflected in our syntax.   There is not even  such process as dying [ spelling?] and  no such state of  being dead...it would have to be the state of not being    if you are dead , you are not.    we are asked to comprehend that  which cannot be given freely to the living since this would eliminate the scope of life so this knowledge must be conquered and failing to, to build a syntax and a culture which will consign us to the enormous reserve that nature thus  regiments as sacrifice to the altar of  chance.  Its aim is solely  to  produce a single perfect being. 

  What can thus really  be other than what is naturally and commonly arrived at ,  is something else entirely different  to common life experience, which however   can only be determined against terrific odds in our lifetime. What we value , understand and to what end we use our life establishes our fate and the cosmos'  And finally,   approaching  the eternal  as we enter  our final phase , that to which  we direct our aim and commit our self to, establishes timelessly  the right relationship with the whole. 

   to embrace death then , is to  overcome it and thus set the timber of comprehension , wisdom and character on a field  that is whole, enduring,  and transcendent..